Sunday, March 27, 2022

मैंने खुद चुना.....

"हां तो क्या हुआ? ये तो मैंने खुद चुना अपने लिए........
तुम अकेले कैसे चुन सकती हो?????
क्यों नहीं?????
फिर मैं कहां हूं?????
तुम हर जगह हो.....
ये तो ग़लत है.......
कैसे?????? देखो....... जब मैं थी तब तुम्हारे बारे में ना मैं जानती थी, ना कभी जानना चाहा और ना ही कभी जानना चाहूंगी!!!!!!
अच्छा!!!!!!! इसका मतलब अभी भी नहीं जाना?????
तुमने बताया कभी??????
मतलब कि शब्द ही सब कुछ हैं, भावनाएं कुछ भी नहीं......
जब कोई भावनाएं व्यक्त करता है ना तो उस मंजर से खुबसूरत कोई मंज़र नहीं होता......
चलो छोड़ो.......
क्यों छोड़ो???????
कुछ नहीं।।।।।
देखो, सबसे पहले मैंने बोला, मैंने बताया.......
अच्छा सबसे पहले किसने, किसको अप्रोच किया??????
हां तो....... आप ने कहा आप आए क्योंकि आपको लगा मुझे जरूरत है........ कहा किसने था कि आप मदद करो???????
अच्छा,,,, नहीं करनी चाहिए थी??????
मदद ना करते तो मैं मीरा बन जाती।।।।।।
अब यहां यु- टर्न ले लेना चाहिए।
ग़लत बात है!!!!!!
आप जो कहते हो सब सही......
ऐसा कुछ नहीं है!!!!!
आह!!!!!!!!!
............""""""".

Friday, February 12, 2021

मुहब्बत

कैसे समझ जाती हो तुम, मेरे मन की बात?
~ तुम्हारी आँखों से.

आँखों से कैसे ?
~ तुमसे, ना तो दर्द छुपाया जाता और ना ही खुशी बस में रहती है..

मुझे लगता था प्यार करती हो इसलिए समझ जाती हो, ये तो मेरी ही कमज़ोरी निकली..
~ प्यार करती हूँ, तभी तुम्हारी कमज़ोरी पता है मुझे ❤️

Monday, September 21, 2020

I Love You......

If your love were a grain of sand, mine should be a universe of beaches.........
Have stayed these years in my hovels, because of you.......
I have taught myself languages, because of you.......
I have made my body strong, because i thought.......
You might be pleased by a strong body......
I have lived my life with only the prayer......
That some sudden down you might glance in my direction.........
I have not known a moment in years......
When the sight of you did not send......
My heart careening against my rib cage.......
I have not known a night......
When your visage didn't accompany me to sleep.......
There has not been a morning.....
When you didn't flutter behind my waking eyelid's.......
I love you...... Want it louder??????
I love you...... Spell it out??????
I love you..... Want it backward???????
"YOU LOVE I"!!!!!!!!

Who would call it wrong?

This beauty of the heart like a thousand kettle drums.......
My mad search for you with twin lamps......
My eyes that search every where for you....
The speed with which my breath increases, in a chest.......
Rising and falling with feelings for you.....
Like tides in your milky ocean bed......
The rush of blood to the face which hungers for kisses.........
Why does it feel so right always to me???????
You are perfection, perennial beauty......
Which time dare not touch with his cobwebbed fingers........
You are complete in yourself......
You seek to rest your head on my heart......
Which murmurs to itself your name incessantly......
Like a prayer.......
You in whom everything rests, reverts......
To my constant joy and seeks me out for repose!!!!!?!

Sunday, August 23, 2020

My Observant Personality

What I love to do??? You may call me over observant, but this is what I always do.... Observe the others very keenly and calmly. Not only observing, taking out conclusions also. Like- He/She giving this expression or pasting this emotion because of this/that. She/He might be think like this/that or understanding right/wrong.... Blah..... Blah.....
To be honest 80% of my conclusions prove me wrong but still.... I Love to do (smile)
Even I am very good story teller for myself. My brain cook fabulous stories for me. Sometimes Love stories sometimes Sad. Hero/ Heroine of my brain can be a lover, vampire, helpless, miserable, cunning, clever or anything, totally depends on the mood of my brain. Surprisingly this is the only moment when my heart and brain works like a time. "Icing on the cake" is my intutions. Most of the time i feel like i have third eye like lord Shiva, have excellent six sense making me an angel..... A superior to other people. (Laugh)
These intutions and observations never help me in the time when i need them most. They always comes afterwards to proving me wrong, telling me and showing me how stupid, careless I am. At that point I have to be Spiritual...... Yes!!!! Another powerful tact in my personality, help's only in arguments with institutions and observations and giving me clean chit that as i am blessed with such an strong personality but still ..... "A Useless brat I am"

Monday, August 10, 2020

दिल की धड़कन

दिल धड़कता है तो आती हैं सदाएँ तेरी..
मेरी साँसों में महकने लगी साँसें तेरी..!

शे’र तो रोज़ ही कहते हैं ग़ज़ल के लेकिन..
आ! कभी बैठ के तुझसे करें बातें तेरी..!

बेख़बर ओट से तू झाँक रहा हो मुझको..
और हम चुपके से तस्वीर बना लें तेरी..!!
नवाज़ देवबंदी

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Silent Lips.... Vocal Eyes....

I can't forget the way your eyes gaze at me.
Even if they are just from the photograph.
I am so lost in these cloudy, sad and tempting eyes,
As if I can see your soul through them.....
.
.
.
.
They told me about you
Told me to resist your charm, 
But I can guarantee
That none of them have been held
In your arms
Or
Truly searched your eyes
To the depth of your soul,
They could noy have
Clear Heart
For if they had they would know,
Incomparable Comfort
That reached to the bone,
Undeniable Assurance
Of never feeling alone,
And i have no intentions
Of calling any other place......... HOME!!!